You Want It Darker

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If you are the dealer, I'm out of the game If you are the healer, it means I'm broken and lame If thine is the glory, then mine must be the shame You want it darker We kill the flame Magnified, sanctified Be the holy name Vilified, crucified In the human frame A million candles burning For the help that never came You want it darker Hineni, hineni I'm ready, my Lord There's a lover in the story But the story's still the same There's a lullaby for suffering And a paradox to blame But it's written in the scriptures And it's not some idol claim You want it darker We kill the flame They're lining up to prisoners And the guards are taking aim I struggle with some demons They were middle class and tame I didn't know I had permission To murder and to maim You want it darker Hineni, hineni I'm ready, my Lord Magnified, sanctified Be the holy name Vilified, crucified In the human frame A million candles burning For the love that never came You want it darker We kill the flame If you are the dealer, let me out of the game If you are the healer, I'm broken and lame If thine is the glory, mine must be the shame You want it darker Hineni, hineni Hineni, hineni I'm ready, my Lord **** If you ask me, these lyrics directly address the Roshi in his last days when Leonard hung around hoping to receive Dharma transmission, the "love that never came." Knowing the truth about his oldest student, that he has murdered, maimed and lied, what could the old man do? Here Leonard makes the usual defense: he was following orders, it was written in the scriptures, he didn't know, he was crippled by fate... Refusing responsibility, still expecting a reward in the end. Did the Roshi humour a maniac, stringing Leonard along for decades, dangling a carrot only to withhold it at the last minute? Yes, that's what I think happened. And Leonard's closing statement is a threat. "You want it darker/ We kill the flame." The Sampson Option.

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